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It’s hard, you know. To truly look at yourself, your beliefs, your current situation and be ruthlessly honest about what’s going on. But I know that God calls us to do that. It has become apparent to me, over the past few days, how distorted Christian’s worldviews can be. I’ve become angry, enraged at times, at the complete disregard of respect for “gentile” humanity. Stories such as a father and mother who disown and abandon responsibilities as parents when they find out their daughter has begun having sex with her boyfriend, or protesters who condemn outside the funeral of Heath Ledger because he portrayed a gay man in a film. I have been aware that people like this exist for the longest time, but my anger has become so intense over the past few weeks. The same thoughts come to mind every time I hear something like this: they absolutely cannot know the same God I know, what Bible are they reading, and mostly, “WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY THINKING.”
ruthless honesty.
This particular blog is not to go on and on about why these people are wrong. (They are very wrong, just so you know) It is, rather, to address why I have been feeling so hurt by the actions of these Christians.
My boyfriend, the intelligent and sometimes infamous Art Boulet, studies. I mean he studies a lot. At times I have been discouraging and sour about the amount of time and dedication that he puts into his love of theology, not being able to understand the importance. I understand that its great to know the bible and where it comes from and a basic history behind it, but why get into the six different meanings of the word “the” and when he starts talking “midrash” I ask if its contagious. (Oh, man I’ve been wanting to use that one for awhile… THANK GOD FOR BLOGS)
There has been a shift in my thinking, however. I see it now. I don’t know why or where the change occurred but I get it. I have been so bothered by the ludicrous claims of some Christians because I know what each of us are capable of knowing… the truth. Instead of pouring over scripture, ancient near eastern texts, Hebrew translations, and whatever else we can get our hands on to get a better understanding of what the Bible is saying… we resort to what we’ve heard before or blind faith. In fact, our faith does not have to be blind. Christ gave us sight. The words that God has blessed us with must be dissected and interpreted and understood deeply. When we disregard the importance of theology (the study of God), is when we all begin to see different gods. There is one God of the Bible. We must pursue discovering exactly who He is relentlessly. I am so encouraged by Art and who he is and what he is becoming. I was raised catholic (loosely) began to see what it meant to be a Christian in high school and have been questioning ever since. For the first time in my life I have met someone who, more than anything, has validated how I have felt over the past few years. My questions and doubts have been met with evidence.
I am working on my patience towards people who do not study and do not know, yet make claims like they do. I am learning to listen. I think they should do the same.
